Divorce Day

I went to court this morning to finalize the divorce. I woke up feeling a bit blue. And it was a freezing cold  day with low temps and lots of wind. But I went down to the court for 8 AM appearance. As I was waiting for my attorney, I looked out the windows. I started to cry. Then I told myself, "I am not going to shed one more tear over that man!" And I stopped immediately.

The whole proceeding only took 5 minutes. We waited for the judge. I was called to the bar with my attorney. I gave my testimony, and the judge said, "The divorce is granted." I was struck by the simpleness of it. I wanted to tell the judge how horrible the X was and what he had done to me. But the judge didn't need to hear that since the X had signed the waiver and waived his rights to appear at the hearing.

I got a certified copy, wrote my attorney the final check for payment, and left.

What I expected was to feel a sense of relief or an emotional weight to be lifted. Instead, I just felt really alone without a friend or family member with me. It was a stark contrast to the beginning of the marriage.

But thankfully, when I arrived home, the florist was there with a beautiful bouquet from my sister and her family.

There are tough days ahead, but I know the worst is behind me.